Our Baby Story - Part 2 - Make A Nursery

I had felt God asking us to get ready for a baby slowly in 2011, before we got the verse in the last post, even though I didn’t have proof of carrying a baby to term.  So in 2011 I bought a bassinet and mobi wrap from a friend, along with a couple smaller items. 

In April of 2013, I met with a couple that have an amazing gift for healing.  They attribute everything to God, and have such wisdom that I checked to make sure was Biblically sound.  They are an amazing couple, and have really challenged my faith in many ways.  When I met with them, we prayed about two things.  One was the never ending hip pain I’d had since having my son.  It was keeping me from sleeping, and there were mornings it was so bad that I needed my husband's help to get out of bed on my own.  They prayed over my hips, and ever since then, except right before my cycles, my hips no longer bothered me!  The other thing they prayed over me about was pregnancy.  I was so touched by their words.  They told me to thank God for what He was going to do, and step out in faith and buy something to prepare for the child coming.  I told them of the bassinet we already had.

Thanking God for what He was going to do was something they had taught me before, and since then I have found in the Psalms is a very Biblical thing to do.  So many times David is praying to God in anguish, usually when his enemies were threatening to over take him.  David prays his heart out, begging God to come to his rescue, and in the next sentence thanks God for being his Deliverer, his Protector, his Rescuer.  For David, God had not rescued him yet, but he had such faith that God would, that he was already saying thank you.  I felt that I needed to start doing the same.

In 2013, I was working a job at home, and I had to reorganize our spare room to be half of an office.  As I organized it, I realized just how many child/baby things we had in bags and boxes, and realized I needed to organize them.  So I got two sets of 3x3 cube shelving, and some drawers to put the loose stuff in and emptied the bags and boxes. 

This is what the side of the room that wasn't an office looked like.  At this point, most of it is just children's toys and book from being a nanny for over a decade, and the bassinet.

That at home office job ended in August.  In September, God told me to clear the room and make it into a nursery before big garbage happened at the beginning of October.

I fought Him for a couple of days.  Sadly, I fought with God often when He would challenge me about doing things for our future baby.  As much as He’s promised us a baby, I was still too afraid to trust, my heart was still so broken after losing our son.  I was healing, but no where near as fast as I’d hoped I would.  So I fought with God more than I care to admit, I let fear have too much of a hold on me. :(  So when God said to build the nursery, my first answer was no.  We weren’t pregnant yet.  We’d been trying for over two years at that point to get pregnant again, and nothing was working, why would I get rid of good furniture for a baby that wasn’t here.  I can remember exactly where I was driving, the exact spot of road where I was when God spoke to me in our car.  My husband did not hear it, but I did.  God asked me if there had been water when He asked Noah to build the ark.  OIH!  Yep, there was NO fighting that, and God knew it. :)

The flood was coming, whether Noah obeyed or not.  This baby was coming, whether I obeyed or not.  Did I want to walk in the faith that Noah had?  Did I want to draw closer to God, trusting even when I might be ridiculed?  When all evidence around me seemed to the contrary of the promise?  Did I want to get to the miracle with the shame of not being able to trust?  I did NOT want to have this baby having doubted the whole time.  I knew if I didn't learn to trust, I was going to deeply regret it.  I was not going to be able to fully enjoy this promise God was giving to me.  Sometimes faith takes action to get our heart to come along, so that's just what I did.

So, in September 2013, I emptied out my 5 foot desk that had been with me since I left home, and a whole bunch of other things that were in our spare room.  I brought in our rocking chair, and put a tote as a foot rest, and set up the bouncy chair we had picked up.

Around this time, God gave us a verse.  Proverbs 3:5 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.”  I felt God wanted me to print this out and make it visible.  I have had this verse memorized since I was a child, it’s part of two verses that people often say together.  When I went to put the second verse with it “In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will keep your paths straight” God said not to put that verse with it.  He wanted me focused on Proverbs 3:5 alone.  And that made sense to me.  All through my life, I keep trying to do all I can for God, and not all of it is just to please Him or be closer to Him.  Sometimes it’s just me feeling I have to be good, or I have to do this and this to earn this or that.  I think God wanted me to stop that line of thinking, and just focus on the trusting.

So over the next few months, God kept challenging us to buy this or that for our nursery.  Every month God was telling us different things to buy.  A dresser, nail clippers, lotions, clothes, you name it, if a baby needs it in their nursery, God was putting it on our hearts no matter how small the item.  By Christmas, this is what our nursery looked like.